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In this exclusive interview for Aifos, Mariah Carey talks from the
professional and personal sides of her life.
Aifos Costa: Recently I believe you had a small problem with the clothes in
the American Music Awards. What happened?
Mariah Carey: (Laughing) It was something stressful. I went on stage with a
gorgeous dress that was not finished yet, and on top of it, it was an
important night and I was starting the show. Could you really see the rip on
it?
AC: Yes, of course we noticed.
MC: I spent the rest
of the night stitching it before going on stage, although finally we decided
to take the zipper out, since it was a custom made dress. You know the kind of
tight dress that an emergency repair would have made a mess when I was out
there. So we decided to stitch it on. Its something I've done a million times,
but this time it didn't work.
AC: Where do you like to travel?
MC: I love the Mediterranean coast and Japan as a
country, (pointing to her dog). This is Jack.
AC: You must feel really sure of yourself when you pick your glamorous
dresses out.
MC: Well, if I had had a little more time the
dress problem wouldn't have happened. To me, that night was as big as the
Grammy night, because its a big show. Dick Clark is a legend and to be the
host that night is a big honour. Any way I did it, there I was opening the
show, with a ripped dress. I remember I was looking at Will Smith and Jada
Pinkett, who were sitting in front row, two lovely people who I adore and know
well – I met Will when I was 17, but I never sang for him, and when he finally
saw my music he asked me why I hadn't gone to see him before signing my
contract. – I was telling the audience all about how you all are my friends
and things like that. Although I couldn't stop thinking about how I almost
didn't make it on stage that night. During the break I had to go to the
dresser to get changed again – Pamela Dennis and me had no underwear on, so
this was another gdetailh. So if anything else had gone wrong that night it
would have been a real scandal. They would have said I did it on purpose.
People are like that. But I donft mind them anymore, but I was completely
naked under that dress and with all those people in the front row, with a big
step to get on to the stage, so if I did win a prize I had thought to tell
everyone what had happened. In the end nothing happened, but with all the
stress I forgot something I never forget when I win a prize, to thank all my
fans for all the wonderful support. I have a wonderful fan club.
AC: You always manage to mention your fans, even with your busy
life-style. How do you keep in touch with them?
MC: Well, itfs like visiting many different
countries. I go to lots of places and see the same people year after year. I
think they are the friends I grew up with and there are always new followers
in line. Logically I cant know where they are, but as a reminder of their
presence I always carry with me my book of fans, because I don't always have
the time to read what they write. Ifve got a favourite from Canada that writes
funny stuff. My fans are always listening to what is happening in my life and
what I say to the media, and they come up with letters with lots of fun ideas
in them. They are loyal, devoted... And maybe people will think Ifm
exaggerating, but I really do feel all these thankful words. They give me
approval in what I do, Itfs something that makes me feel good about what I do.
It make me feel good because when I decided to make music I wanted to free
myself from a very unhappy period of my life, like my youth. A time when I
didnft feel very graceful, I didnft feel..
AC: At the moment you seem to be having one of the best times of your
life. Is this true?
MC: It is. The only thing Ifm always worried
about as you can imagine, is my voice, because when Ifm having a good time at
a party with my friends, Ifve got to stop and tell myself gshut up!h. If I
want my voice to sound right I have to stop and take care of myself, because
when Ifm tired it doesn't. That's why I constantly have to drink lots of water
to hydrate myself.
AC: With all the travelling, parties, recordings, record shows, etc. Do
you ever get time to sleep, or better said to rest?
MC: In the past Ifve always had sleeping
problems, and Ifve always been an insomniac. I used to write and talk
constantly about it, but now I live in a quiet place, and Ifve learnt to
disconnect myself, but it hasn't been easy. Itfs hard because I deal
personally with a lot of details in my career, so there are some times when no
matter how many people are behind my work, there are things that I have to do
myself, because I am the only one who knows how I like them.
AC: Why don't you tell us about the men in your life?
MC: Because you only want to know one thing, and
the answer is... Well, Ifm one of those people who think that personal issues
are to be kept for yourself.
AC: Do you know that you are one of the few celebrities that apparently
do not have a love in their life?
MC: Well, people can believe whatever they want.
AC: But your songs are about love.
MC: Yes.
AC: How did you end up recording at Capri? Itfs rather a unusual place
for a North American artist to record an album.
MC: Yes, itfs not normal, but as I said, I really
like the Mediterranean and I had heard about the place when I recorded
Pavarotti and Friends in e99 so I told Randy Jackson, who was working on some
songs I wanted to use when I was in Italy. It was Randy who told me there was
a incredible place in Capri. So I went over there and fell for its weather and
clean air, that is good for my voice.
AC: Do you like the Mediterranean style?
MC: Isn't it the best? I love the Mediterranean.
The people, the food, everything. The funny thing is that my brother lives in
Italy, and is fluent in Italian. He used to be a model, and did Kick Boxing,
but now hefs on to other things. Hefs like me. The first time he went to Italy
he felt like he had always belonged there, we are not Italian so I donft know
where we get that feeling, but Capri is special for me. I love to walk every
day surrounded by nature and without smog.
AC: You seem to be very concerned about a healthy life.
MC: I guess so. In some ways Ifm very careful
because I spend a lot of time away from home. Some times lots of people handle
the microphones I sing with, so I always demand that they are sterilised. It
also happens when you shake hands with lots of people. Some opera singers for
example, never leave home without covering their faces because their voice is
their most valuable instrument.
AC: Some times you have commented that you lost lots of your youth
because you spent too much time working.
MC: Itfs true (Laugh).
AC: When you see artists today they seem to be having fun all the time.
Are you having fun now?
MC: Well no, you cant say Ifm having fun now
because Ifm working. But itfs fine because I just took a little vacation. I
always wanted to make the music I like, and not to have to fight with people
that tell me what kind of music to make just because git worksh. Sometimes
they say, Why donft you work with this rapper? Now everyone is tripping on
rap. Some News! It makes me annoyed because for years Ifve been trying to
integrate urban sounds in my past recordings. Ifve always worked with rappers
and made remixes. I worked with ODB and he was a hardcore rapper and no one
would expect to see me working with him. Rest in peace... I really liked
working with him, he was a great guy.
AC: Could you stop working tomorrow?
MC: Yes, but Ifd still sing for fun. Its what I
like doing.
AC: But you don't have to sing to make a living.
MC: No, but itfs part of my soul.
AC: Did you ever sing in a small club?
MC: No, but therefs a small jazz club in Los
Angeles and some times I think I should go and sing there. I used to sing in
jazz clubs, my mother would take me when I was little. I was thinking it would
be fun, I remember it was always very late. Ifve been in LA for some time, but
Ifm thinking about going back to New York.
AC: Do you like the night life?
MC: After my marriage lots of my friends tried to
scandalise me with stories about night escapes looking for sex. And I donft
mind, I think it funny. Be yourself, do whatever you want to do but my friends
have always made fun of me, because they know Ifm a prudent woman.
AC: Is that true?
MC: Yes, definitely and the cause of that is in a
traumatic childhood. Seeing things that have driven me not to have a baby just
to have one. To grow without any troubles in that sense.
AC: Do you feel you are getting older than most current artists by
turning 21?
MC: No, because I thought of it when I was 18
(laugh). I feel like the same person. I feel that now Ifm in the world and
every day I learn new things. I have learnt to polish my character. You canft
let pain turn into hate. Or I would have never found any peace. You canft go
to hell and back if you havenft felt a bit of happiness.
AC: Is there anything you feel you are missing in your life?
MC: I would like to have a few days off (laugh).
I love my job and its important to be mentally and physically prepared. Its
like being a sportsman, if you break your knee you will be out of the game the
entire season. Itf a good example because I have to sleep lots of hours, be
careful with my voice and everything. These days Ifm happy, and feel proud of
having good friends.